Mum's birthday is this friday.
which means...
My birthday is next saturday.

I am getting old!!! ZOMG. 19!!! Nineteen!!!! Last of the teen years IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!! I kinda have alot of regrets up till now. There's so many things I THOUGHT of doing but never could. I thought I can actually have an exciting life, the I'm-young-so-I-can-do-ANYTHING kinda life. But it seems I kinda failed in doing that, at least until now. Like I would like to try smoking (but just ONE puff), be a waitress (yes, I am very interested in trying out in the service industry) and alot of I-can't-remember-whats.
Not that I am very unhappy with my life, in fact I am very thankful for all the wonderful things that happened, the awesome things I experienced, the great people I met, my fabulous family and everything, but I thought I could make more out of life, out of myself.
I hope it's still not too late!!

Donut factory is not really that nice after all.

I felt like crying AGAIN! AGAIN!!!!
It is so bad. Can somebody just kill me?!??!
I have no idea what on earth is happening to me but all I know is that this is ABNORMAL and WRONG! It was just a normal, same old webcam conversation!!! I am not supposed to get all emo and think of things I'm not supposed to think of and most importantly, I am not supposed to cry!!!
WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN INTO ME?!!?!?!?
Somebody talk some sense into me please!