I really got the scholarship! Like omg!
It has always been just-try-lor kinda thing and a lie-so-that-i-can-get-out-of-the-job thing but I seriously never thought I would get it!
All the while I've been longing to go overseas to study but now I'm doubting if it really is a good choice to go. All of a sudden there are so many things to worry about, so many things I cant bear to leave, so many uncertainties. Then the 2 jobs are totally taking away all my time so I can't concentrate on aussie matters. All I can do is press lian everyday to consider esther or constance or both so I can get out of her job which will take away 90% of the load. Sinema.... I really wanna stay with them as long as I can, but on the other hand all the late shifts are taking away my family time. I want to spend as much time with my family as possible. There's only 2 months left! Well, actually ever since sinema started, I had very little time at home even for day shifts since I end 7:30pm which means no dinner at home. When should I quit?? End of June?
It's like pre-OSIP all over again. Things I think about so very often, times where I will cry out of the blue... I woke up yesterday thinking I will not have much more time on my own bed and started crying (and at the same time taking it as an excuse to sleep in a lil more XD), then somehow while I was bathing the tears came. I really wonder if I'll be alright.
Since when I became such a crybaby??
But yay! Desmond is coming in July!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
i <3 weekends
12:13 AM
12:13 AM
It's so nice to just slack around, nap around, laze around.
I know there's work to do but can I just throw it out of the window for now?
Watched Indiana Jones last night. First time watching midnight show!! I'm suprised I managed to stay awake since it's not exactly my kinda movie. But it's not bad actually, apart from Harrison Ford having a bulging belly. Spielberg really should have added the ET phone home part. Greatest ideas from JB as always. ROFL!
It has been so terribly hot these days it is untolerable. I NEED A MOBILE AIR CON!
I miss my life before work started.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
i hate work. period.
10:38 PM
10:38 PM
I QUIT!
Now I can count down to the days of freedom!!! 28 more days and I can say goodbye to everything that has been causing all the nightmares for the previous 6 weeks!!! It has been living hell ever since I took up her job, and got worst after I started at sinema. Not that sinema is bad, in fact it's very good, but I was really over estimating myself and the job when I agreed to work at sinema. So now, I'll be quitting the BAD job and continue with sinema for a while more and then end that too cos I have to recuperate and get ready for uni!
I'm still suffering from the toothache. But it turns out that I have NO WISDOM. Which is very very sad. It's actually a nerve infection of some sort. The dentist suggest I either get rid of that tooth or do a root canal treatment - whatever that is. But mum insists it is stress, heatiness and lack of rest. I'm beginning to believe it is. Cos after sufficient food and ample rest during the weekend, I feel so much better alr.
Talking about weekend, the past 2 days has been awesome. Long weekend due to vesak day so we decided to go to johor since the previous time was jeopardised by sis' expiring passport. It was such a bliss to be able to announce to all my bosses that I'M ON LEAVE!!! Although saturday morning was still spoilt by her messages but after that was pure relaxation which I hadn't had in a looooong while. Previously, every weekend/holiday I had, I kept thinking of work 24/7 but this 2 days I tried to blank out as much as possible. There were still times where I thought of work while shopping but then I made a conscious effort to think about something else, something happy and it worked!!! My brain could finally rest!!! It was a fabulous feeling.
I'm really glad for the trip and all the support from my family.
I long for time to do things I love, like cooking and baking.
I long for time to do things I don't like like packing my room and laundry.
I long for time at home.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I HATE WISDOM
9:01 AM
9:01 AM
For a few days, I thought it was just heatiness causing that little toothache. But then yesterday, it suddenly became such untolerable piercing pain. Everyone says it's wisdom tooth.
WHY??!!!! Why does it hurt so badly?!!! Why must it choose this time?!!! The pain was so bad I couldnt chew vege. The pain was so bad I couldn't sleep last night and had to take 2 panadol extra. The pain was so bad I got awoken by it at 8AM!!!!
Going to the dentist later. Hopefully he can get rid of it.
But the thing is I've got work!!! If I go on a week's MC, I think lian will kill me. But well, considering the other day when I told her I was down with fever, she still made me work. So I might still have to work, but I won't be able to talk which means no phone calls. And that really means I CAN'T WORK. I'm not sure if I'm overjoyed or worried about this XD
I wonder when will be the surgery. Although in actual fact, I still don't know if it's wisdom or cavity. LOL. But if it's cavity on this scale, it should need a surgery to extract too.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
i love mummy
10:55 PM
10:55 PM
Happy mother's day~~
This must have been the most unprepared mother's day. I totally didn't have time to shop for presents and all. But we still got her 2 bags and flowers and a card. And steamboat for dinner!! Heart dinners at home very very much.
I got a place at NUS FASS!!! SHOCKU!
That big brown envelop just popped up in the mailbox yesterday. Totally unexpected. But rather glad though. And NTU totally rejected me. That letter was so super diplomatic I think they were afraid we might commit suicide or something if they just wrote "WE DO NOT WANT YOU". Oh wells, whatever. Deep down I wanna go aussie actually~~ Please lemme get the scholarship!!
Met Cher Han at sinema last night!! SHOCKU!
It's been like over a year!! He's at SMU doing a double degree. cho sugoii! But he says it's really competitive there. Me no like competitive. But dammit SMU's location is good. grrrr.
My very first namecard!!!
Thursday, May 01, 2008
another brand new month
9:39 PM
9:39 PM
And it's already the fifth month into the year! Happy May Day!
Stress from work is really getting to me. Last night, while we were at ktv singing (and sleeping) through the night, I had work nightmares zooming in and out of my head for quite a while. Kept thinking about the press release, the film festivals, the plasma screen... And today it wasn't any better since I so conveniently left my phone on the bed and was completely uncontactable for the entire day. I was worrying so very often if SHE would call and scream at me or something. Even though I was so tired I could sleep on the train standing, I was worrying yet again about that damn press release and all. It's really as though my life don't belong to me.
Last night's ktv was..... interesting. It's the first time in my whole life I sang so many english songs during ktv. But the smoke machine was fun!!
It's also the first time I reached home at 6.35am after a whole night out, I think. And never ever board a cab just before 6am, don't let the cabbie earn that $1.40 from the flag down.