I lied.
I'm sorry.

Yes, I knew it all along. What I told you today was lies. LIES.
But how can I bear to tell you? I have asked personally and so I know the cruel truth. I was reluctant because I knew you would not like it. While talking to you, I got tempted to burst your bubble with that truth, but then you tell me that you would want to escape from reality, so I kept it in again.

There are many things I've not told you. I thought those things are better off untold - at least not to you. I'm not sure if I am trying to keep your fantasies alive or am I indulging in my own selfishness for not telling you.

But if you happen to find out one day, I can only say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.
I lied.