I really got the scholarship! Like omg!
It has always been just-try-lor kinda thing and a lie-so-that-i-can-get-out-of-the-job thing but I seriously never thought I would get it!
All the while I've been longing to go overseas to study but now I'm doubting if it really is a good choice to go. All of a sudden there are so many things to worry about, so many things I cant bear to leave, so many uncertainties. Then the 2 jobs are totally taking away all my time so I can't concentrate on aussie matters. All I can do is press lian everyday to consider esther or constance or both so I can get out of her job which will take away 90% of the load. Sinema.... I really wanna stay with them as long as I can, but on the other hand all the late shifts are taking away my family time. I want to spend as much time with my family as possible. There's only 2 months left! Well, actually ever since sinema started, I had very little time at home even for day shifts since I end 7:30pm which means no dinner at home. When should I quit?? End of June?

It's like pre-OSIP all over again. Things I think about so very often, times where I will cry out of the blue... I woke up yesterday thinking I will not have much more time on my own bed and started crying (and at the same time taking it as an excuse to sleep in a lil more XD), then somehow while I was bathing the tears came. I really wonder if I'll be alright.
Since when I became such a crybaby??

But yay! Desmond is coming in July!